I guess maybe I am tired. The heat and worrying about what the tests will show have me on edge, or perhaps it is simply the disintegration of life as i know it that has me feeling angry and upset. Maybe it is times like this I should walk away from the computer but then, that just isn’t me.
Too many deaths when people should be waking up to enjoy life, not burying next of kin. Too many bombs going off instead of people jostling for the morning coffee. Seems that as each day passes, things don’t improve but worsen.
I know that many in the Middle East are tired of war, yet are powerless to gain peace. Even as we right this some rocket is being fired off against Israel, some artillery shell is being aimed at Lebanon. It just never ends and everyone wants to blame the other. ( see my Gay Talk Blog, Consider This )
Hell even I get tired of all this and yes, in all honesty neither side has behaved like mentshe (gentlement) and it seems that the lust for blood is too much for common sense. Personally who cares if there is another Arab state? I think they should have it and let’s end this bullshit. Course, what they agreed to as boundaries last year isn’t what they want this year, so I guess the war will continue there.
I think too that the blood lust is so great that even outsiders are willing to wage a war for something that really no one knows or understands. I mean remember the IRA? Can anyone today tell me what that was ever really about? Just Protestant against Catholic and we call ourselves Civilized?
It’s amazing really but you know, it reminds me too of a passage in an old movie. Shoes of the Fisherman. It starred Anthony Quinn and was written by Morris West. In the movie and book there is this scene, where the new Pope ( a Russian) is in a tenanent house, giving last rites more or less to a dying old Jewish man. The son or relative turns to the Pope and says:
It isn’t the dying we mind so much, it is the living that defeats us.
Maybe that is it in a nutshell. Is this a test by God to see where we stack up in the after life? I don’t know, all I know is that I am tired of death even as it comes closer for me. I guess I am an idealist and I wonder why when people are starving they support people who instead of buying food, buy Katusha Rockets or AK47′s?
Just makes no sense to me.
Whatever happened to the old cliche of ‘turning the other cheek’? Today we pass laws banning a minority from enjoying the same rights we do, we have a President who openly says he’ll defy the will of congress thru 800 signing statements and no one complains? I don’t get it, as we parse words (thanks Bill Clinton for that one) about whether it is civil war or getting close.
Fact is, people are dying because of religious differencs at the rate of 100 a day. Do you think their families care what label you put on it?
The world is nuts so I have to realize I can’t change it, but I can maybe make it a bit brighter. So I think we shall write a new erotic story to post here and who knows, maybe a few minutes of R&R will help ease some of that tension. Maybe it will help make the living not so awful.